Some people come into our lives and others quickly go and others leave footprints on our hearts and we will never be the same……
Edward Frank Hall died on August 15 around 850pm. He went off to play with Jesus and leave his suffering behind. Please remember his family in prayers. The service was today and it was beautiful. Tammy showed me a picture of Little Man right before he died and he looked so peaceful…almost like he was standing at the gates of Heaven ready to go in. His death has really hit me deep. I was very close with the family and with him. It makes me count my blessings even more because that could have been me. He had a purpose and it was fulfilled. Maybe that was his way of bringing Tammy to Jesus. Who knows. Please just pray for them.
HALL Edward Frank “Little Man” Hall is resting in the arms of God. He was born March 5, 2007, at Forsyth Medical Center and went home to be with the Lord on Wednesday, Aug. 15, 2007, from Brenner Children’ s Hospital at Wake Forest University Baptist Medical Center in Winston-Salem. “Little Man” leaves behind three sisters, Jade and Jasmine Moreno and Taylor Hall; his mother, Tamara Gail Hall; his father, David Moreno; grandparents; and numerous aunts and uncles who will miss him dearly. A memorial service will be held at 1 p.m. Saturday, Aug. 18, at Hayworth-Miller Kinderton Chapel in Advance. In lieu of flowers, the family requests that donations be made in his memory to the March of Dimes, 500 W. Fourth St., Suite 100, Winston-Salem, NC 27101-2782, or the United Way, 301 N. Main St., Suite 1700, Winston-Salem, NC 27101. The family would like to thank all the tremendous doctors, nurses and staff at Brenner whose care allowed us five beautiful months with our baby. Special thanks go out to nurses, Sabrina, Wendy and Lisa who loved and will also miss him.
wow. so much has happened in a little over a month and a half. heres the wonderful update. amber did have to have 2 diffrent surgerys on her eyes. but the ROP is gone and the cateract has almost completley disappeared. then a few weeks later amber hit rock bottom. her stomach began swelling real bad and at one point the dr looked at me and said things will be touchy she could die. that night i prayed reall hard. the next day things looked better. once she got over all her infections she went to surgery yet again to have a piece of her colon removed. the surgery went beautifully but once again we were faced with life-threatning infections. she hit rock bottom again towards the end of july and even developed pneumonia. and now 2 weeks later almost to the day….amber is in the intermediate nursery with about 3 weeks left in the hospital. we still need to teach her how to take a bottle but other than that she is almost perfectly healthy. now tell me God doesnt answer prayers. like ive always said i wanted them answered right then but with patience they have been answered. there were times when i felt like giving up but i never did. and dont. that was the devil talking to me. on another note. leaving ICU was hard today. im leaving behind a handful of nurses i have come to love deaely. they cried when i cried. laughed when i laughed and believed even when i felt like alll hope was gone. i wanna say thank you to all of you. Wendy, Jennifer, Tammy, Angela, Angie, Ms Linda, and Kathy. All you ladies helped me through some real tough times. Also all the wonderful doctors. Thank you lord for giving them the knowledge to be able to work with these miracle children. I want everyone to pray for Edward as well. Unfortuatly her turned 5 months old a couple of days ago. Poor Tammy (his mom) she looks so discourged some days. I keep telling her to hold on, and keep her head up. but i know how it is when just one part dosent work. for amber it was her colon. for edward its his lungs. please just continue to pray for him. his day will come. also remember all the families whose little ones have gone on to be with Jesus. I cant imagine the pain they feel but since being here at Brenners Ive seen 10 babies fight the battle till the end and then move on. i will update real soon.
i know i havent been updating this site nearly enough and i am so sorry. amber has been doing remakably well. in the last week they took her breathing tube out and put her on cpap. she has done so well this time around on it. she is on about 28-34% oxygen which for amber is very low. (but its good!!!!) jesus has continues to bless me. about a week ago i thought everything was falling apart and i was ready to give up and walk away. thats when i heard that whisper in my ear that he wasnt going to leave me nor amber. i remember as i went home that night i just prayed for understanding and the next day jesus blessed me with a dr who was willing to sit there till i completly understood ambers condition. now im not saying amber is going to go home tomorrow. she still has many battles to face. the first being her eyes. she is in stage one zone one of ROP. its a disease that affects preemies eyes and can cause them to be blind if left untreated. i will speak with ambers dr tomorrow about the actions to take to keep her eye sight good. i also found out this week that she has a blockage in her colon. fortunatly the blockage is right there at her butt so the surgery will be less complicated. she will still have to have a colonoscopy back and another surgery to reconnect but i am thankful it isnt in her intestines. that surgeon will be speaking with me sometime soon to get that surgery underway. i sit here and i think of all the times i complain because of ambers condition and wonder why this happened to me. then i hear that wonderful whisper in my ear from jesus that this was HIS will and to just believe. now for me thats sometimes hard to do, but i find peace in knowing that amber is in his care and that he wont fail me. he hasnt yet and i refuse to let the devil make me believe he has. he brought a miracle into this world. that baby had no chance according to man to make it. babies her size rarley made it and if they did they normally died within the first 72 hours. well 10 weeks and 2 days later amber is still here thanks to jesus. he has given her the chance of life and me the chance to love uncondionally. people who never had a preemie always ask how do you cope. and the only thing i can say is jesus. if it wasnt for jesus i couldnt sit here and type this and if it wasnt for jesus my little girl would not be here. im already trying to show amber the right way to live. i hung my cross necklace in her incubator and i always push her prayer bear every night. she expects me to push him to. i think i see a calm wash over her. this baby has been through so much but things could be worse. theres babies around amber that have soo many complications. one being my friend tammy. her little boy was diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension last week. i remember when i walked by her she said “little man” needs a miracle if hes going to make it. and i looked at her and said God will grant that if you just believe and i prayed for him. the next day things were looking better. so for all who does not believe, you should. God answers all prayers when the time is right. he has for me and for others around me. i cant make it through without God. and i dont ever wanna try again either. but all i ask for is continuing prayers for amber. she still has many battles that she can only win with Gods help.
well from the last blog things have really been looking up for amber. she had her PDA liagation done on friday and came out of surgery like a true champion. she has also had her vent turned down lower and seems very stable. keep her in your prayers because she will begin eating again this week. it seems everytime she gets milk they have to stop because of NEC creeping back around. well for now thats the newest update.
well here is the newest update on amber……today she was moved to baptist hospital, facing the possiblity of a surgery. due to her extreme prematurity her bowels are not functioning. her tummy is very puffy and the best thing to do was move her while she was stable. i think baptist is a very nice hospital and have no doubts she is in the best possible care. im just trying to handle the change. i hate change and its hard to get used to. they are going to try to hold off on surgery as long as possible. and check xrays. it looks like it could be just gas and extra air in the stomach. so just keep tid-bit in your prayers. im going to go and try to sleep for awhile.
well what can i say? I recently gave birth to a beautiful baby girl that I named Amber. Its hard to believe that at 19 I made such a bad choice that turned out to be the best one in the world. I had never planned to have a baby, I was always the one that liked them because I could give it back. And now I’m a mama. Well heres the background for everyone who dosent know. Amber was born on Easter Sunday 3 1/2 months premature. She came out 14oz and 11 1/2 inches long. For a baby that no one had hope in she has come such a long way. She now weighs in at 1lb 14oz, so shes getting there. But I know now that without God she never could have survived. I had my doubts going into surgery. I wondered the whole time I wonder if she will even be here when I wake up. And she was the first thing I asked about after surgery. For Amber to have come out crying was a miracle in its self. Her lungs were so immature. I spent the first week hoping and praying that God would pull Amber through. Even as I struggled with the many complications following after her birth I never asked for my health to be better only Ambers. And Im still like that. She has finally put some fat on her and shes not so skinny. Her lungs are still way under developed and her stomach isnt very capable of digesting food but I know with time God will be ready for her to do all these things on her own. I think the hardest thing through all this is Ive never held her and its aggrevating. Especially when other moms around me can hold theirs. I just pray for God to give me the patience and understanding. I know now why God gave me my baby. I was on a down hill spiral. I had a crummy job that never let me have Sundays off, even though the manager knew I wanted to go to church. I had friends that I let talk me into clubbing and staying out all night. I worked the worst shifts alot of the time, which was 3rd. I was always scared that IHOP was gonna get shot up, because of the drunks and the fights they would start. Finally I realized I needed another job and found one. That let me have some Sundays off. And also made more money. The ex-boyfriend I cut all ties with after his crazy girlfriend continued to harass me. And then finally my life seemed to be looking up. Now all I have to worry about is Amber and myself. I’m just hoping I can be the best mom, and she wont be afraid to tell me how she feels.
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